Monday, December 28, 2009

Reflections: Let There Be


Being on vacation, this week and last, I’ve been boxing backwards like a man on a mission from God. This morning I extracted the following bit of writing from a folder of miscellaneous musings for which I had no use at the time of their composition: no blog yet, then.

In this piece, I made use of images from some several pre-existent poems. It is not dated. The run-on sentences are deliberate:

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxMind Under Matter

Imagine the Genesis, the instant of the living cell, the simple datum of now, the primordial (!) of being, the impact of is, scant effervescence of flesh, more sea than surface, out of eternal silence made manifest, out of the dreamless sleep of cool minerality cast into a steeping, screaming cauldron of chaotic light, temporal and temporary, unendurable.

Regress to a notion of what that first cell had to endure, Eros at outset, want without will, need without knowing, attracted, perhaps, to light, more eye than I, repulsed, perhaps, by motion, ontology of need, epistemology of hunger.

The immensity of that miniscule event persists, incommensurate, this thing so tiny, so huge, revealing across fathomless seas of space-time the gnosis of the Big Bang, which, paradoxically, impossibly, it outweighs on the scale of significance, hoisting the whole starry explosion out of the depths of endlessly contingent night, to reveal the slight, human light of prophecy, hope, aspiration.

That improbable spark of I am, predicting complex permutations of sentient mass in motion, all material striving, from the thunderous rut of Brontosaurus to the chalkboard ponderings of alchemist Einstein, or the emotionally teleological aural alembic of a Bach chorale.

That single cell that gave birth to the mind which calculates and comprehends the massive fecundity of the rosy receding lights of a billion-billion galaxies.

And the Whole is patterned, the Essence is informed.

Had we the information to connect all the dots, would we fall flat in awe before the face of the Holy Spirit, or would we roll up our sleeves in resignation, perpetually to tend the Big Machine?

What provides the light that lights our dreams?

Are we circus folk or angels?

Listen now—even as the big tent collapses in tatters around us, we hear the tigers being rolled away in their cages.



William R. Barker said...

One of my favorites...


I'm also quite partial to Kipling!


Rodak said...

I fucking knew it was a mistake to start this thing back up.

William R. Barker said...

Philistine! No appreciation for Kipling, huh?!



William R. Barker said...

"Being on vacation, this week and last..."

So... other than "musing," what does a Rodak do during his vacation?

Me? Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, and Saturday were all busy with visiting of friends and relatives.

New Year's Eve... looks like Mary and I will be attending the house party of a friend of a friend.

This coming weekend... our good friends Drunk'n Ted and Drunk'n Mary are coming down from New Hampshire and on Saturday we'll hit the City, see The Tree, play on the elevators of the Marriott Marquis in Times Square and partake of a few cocktails perched within the revolving rooftop lounge before heading down to Little Italy for dinner.

Sunday... brunch.

How'bout you and yours, Rob? Staying close to home also?


Rodak said...

I'm busy putting my personal archives in order for the benefit of my next of kin.

Anonymous said...

Why not just give your kin a hard drive of your stuff. I mean, can you really trust Blogger with your personal collection.

And by the way, Mr. Huff and puff, I dig your writing et al, so it's not a "mistake" to do this blog. Whether you realize it or not you actually do have a positive effect on some folk. And no, the mass of men will never beat a path to your cyber-door, but then again the mass of men are off watching bullshit on the Fox Network or reading such *WONDERFUL* literary crap as the New York Post.

There may be yet some young, unknown impressionable mind who serendipitously discovers your treasures while trying to escape VH1, ESPN, and those fucking Seth McFarlane "cartoons."


Peace out my baby boom homie ...


Anonymous said...

See, you made get my cyberhandles mixed up with other folks'!


Rodak said...

Alright. Thanks for the vote of confidence. I'll keep on truckin'.

Anonymous said...

You, Eddie Kendricks and Mr. Crumb!


Rodak said...

Sweet, indeed! Thanks!