Reflections: This

When I realize it was love that turned into this, I'm quite certain that "this" is hell.

Rodak's Writings: Another Poem I Don't Want to Post on Facebook

Prevention Lines

If I say

I have lost everything,

I will soon begin receiving

lists of things

I still have.

If I say

these remains

are insufficient,

I will soon be told

to get help.

If I get help,

I will soon be asked

how long I have felt

this way.

Since I lost

almost everything,

I will answer.

Rodak's Writings: a Painful Poem

If, Not When

If only I can

get you wondering

what it would be like,

despite all the speed bumps

and Do Not Enter signs

on this one-way toll road,

I will have won

some kind of dubious

and Pyrrhic victory.

Rodak's Writings: An End-Stage Poem

And Suddenly You’re Old

The records of your fuck-hungry youth

don’t spin anymore.

The eyes of young women you encounter

are the eyes of an alien race:

They make a brief taxonomic evaluation

then quickly move on.

The eyes of old women demand payment

of some long-standing debt,

for which you no longer have the currency

to satisfy.

You have watched your father --

who taught you how to swing a bat,

who taught you the words you now employ

to curse your failing body -- die without warning,

on a day that began as routine.

Then time becomes a crushed and soggy tissue,

disgusting, no longer of use.

And suddenly you’re old.

Rodak's Writings: An Orphaned Poem

I'm pissed. The first thing I posted on Facebook yesterday was the poem below. I was very happy with it. I waited all day for it to get any response at all from my FB friends. Twenty-four hours later it has still gotten none. So be it. I can play that game too. 

So, nobody--here it is again. At least on Rodak Riffs I don't expect any response:

After Duran

Finally the body says, “No mas.”

“Long enough have I endured
these constant, nagging, pains,
only to allow your ridiculous mind
a rosy cave in which to cower.

“Return you now to Platonic realms.
Or simply dissipate like the angry clouds
of a summer storm.

“I will lie me down
and let the birds, or the worms,
or the oven’s flame,
clean up after all that was substantial
during this mundane interval.

“To rot is to rest:
Disintegration is the only promise
Existenz can keep.”

Rodak's Writings: Some More Bitter Verse

Advice

So, you think you can break my heart?

Well, maybe you can,

if first you are able to pick up

all the scattered pieces of it

and then work some kind

of jerry-rigged Jesus act,

to make it whole again.

But, honestly, I’m too old to feel much.

Best you go break a heart

that’s not already been broken.

I’d hate to see you

do your voodoo

for doo-doo.

Rodak's Writings: a Pome

Star Light, Star Bright

When things get very dark,

the fucking suckers say,

you can then look up

and see the stars.

Right.

There they are:

seductively twinkling

unreachable gems,

light dead on arrival,

celestial cockteasers.

But thanks for the thought.